Saturday, July 2, 2011

I'm Not The Only One

There seems to be a desire for me to relive all those horrible nightmares in the past regarding the colonel. After all those tears of pure terror, my wife finding me in another room not knowing what was going on with me and why I was having all these nightmares. I do not know what the colonel has planned for me but he is taking it back to the beginning. Why? 
I found some stories for you to read. Draw your own conclusion.


I wanted to share this experience with you and see what you think.


When I was married to my now ex-wife who had lost her mother at the age of 11, she told me that her deceased mother had appeared to her in dreams while she was sleeping. I was skeptical but maintained an open mind about the whole thing thinking that it was possible. That was until it happened to me.
My father who I was very close to passed away in January 1996. It was the hardest day of my life. I loved my father very much. I can't remember the day, but one night while I was sleeping I had this dream.
I remember a white house which I don't recognize but in the backyard there was a typical screen door with the screen mesh on it that you could see through. In my dream, I approached the screen door and recognized my father on the other side of the door. He looked at me and said, "Son, there's something I want to tell you." At that moment, I was so freaked out, even in the dead of sleep I unfortunately snapped out of it and woke up. It really freaked me out. I never got to hear what it was that my "father wanted to tell me." For the rest of my life, I will regret waking up out of that dream. I wish I could of heard what he wanted to tell me.
I'm a believer now that relatives can come to you in your dreams but what I can decide is if it is a manifestation of your sub-conscious mind or if it is a real experience.

Here is another;
 
I have always had dreams in which deceased friends and relatives show up. I am always delighted to see them and immediately ask them why they are here because they are supposed to be dead. They never answer my question but just start to join me in whatever I am doing in the dream when they appear.
I have seen my dad so many times in the dreams, he passed away 20 years ago. I have had dreams with my father in law who twice has given me a big hug and it just felt so good. He passed away about 5 years ago.I have seen my younger sister who passed away 8 years ago in my dreams. In one of the dreams, I told her to go away because she was bugging me as younger sisters do in real life. When I woke up, I thought to myself that I should never have asked her to leave because the time she was spending with me was extra precious time that a lot of people do not get.I recently told my sisters and mom about my dreams, they live in another state. Both were shocked because they do not have dreams with deceased people. When I told my mother in law about getting a hug from her deceased husband, she was also shocked and even a little jealous.


It sounds like the mother-in-law thought her daughter-in-law was crazy. Read on;



This dream that I found more resembles the repetitive dreams that I have experiencing for years. The dreams started out as terror filled with a reason that I could not understand. It was especially hard on my wife because she had never seen anything like them, before. After I told her of what happened while I was in the military, she still did not understand but she had a good idea of the origin of the nightmares. After several decades of putting up with my bizarre behavior she became even more willing to find out how we could get some relief from these horrendous nightmares. It is disappointing that after I had the chance to talk with the colonel all I got was questions. Not the answers I was seeking. I hope it will not be another several years before I get another chance to talk with the colonel and find out if I had done the right thing.



Meaning of a Dream That Repeats Itself ;

We have all had phases in our lives when it seems like we can’t get rid of a dream. We may having the same dream night after night or even be having the same dream a couple of times a night. Some people have the same dream a couple of times a week or a month. Repetitive dreams are also those ones that you seem to have had year after year from child. If you have had a dream more than three times in your life, it qualifies as a repetitive dream. Psychologists tell us to take note of these repeating dreams because it may be our subconscious mind trying to tell us something.
The thing that is so disquieting about repetitive dreams is that they often feel like “a call to action.” Often, the person feels panicked and like they have to do something. Many psychologists tell us that these dreams are an ironic “wake up call.” Just as you must wake up from a dream to remember, the dream might be telling you to wake up to a truth that you might be hiding from others or yourself.
Repetitive dreams indicate that you are continuing to miss the point about the meaning of the dream. If you don’t “wake up” to the unconscious meaning of the dream, but instead persist in seeing it through your own wish-fulfillment needs, you will remain stuck in your own self-deception. However, sometimes repetitive dreams are part of a post traumatic reaction to something that has happened in your life. Our modern word nightmare derives from the Middle English nightmare (from night, night, and mare, demon), an evil spirit believed to haunt and suffocate sleeping people. And so, in today’s world, when we speak of a nightmare, we mean a frightening dream accompanied by a sensation of oppression and helplessness. Traumatic nightmares are one of the many symptoms of post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Repetitive, intrusive nightmares following a trauma often contain symbolic themes that mirror the original trauma and relate to threat to life, threat of abandonment or death, or loss of identity.
The problem with these types of dreams is it is not enough to just know them intellectually. You have to take measures in real life to address your fears or you will most likely keep having the nightmares.
To stop nightmares you might trying writing them down in as much detail as possible, no matter how frightening you find them. Write the story out but give the nightmare a different ending. Diminish what is fearful in the dream and give it a happy needing. Remember that the nightmare is grounded in emotions such as raw anger that have been provoked by a trauma. The point of a new ending is to “tame” the emotions and rewrite your narrative. Then, rehearse the new ending in your mind every night before going to sleep. Many people can successfully stop having repetitive nightmares using this method


Meaning of a Dream That Repeats Itself

We have all had phases in our lives when it seems like we can’t get rid of a dream. We may having the same dream night after night or even be having the same dream a couple of times a night. Some people have the same dream a couple of times a week or a month. Repetitive dreams are also those ones that you seem to have had year after year from child.

If you have had a dream more than three times in your life, it qualifies as a repetitive dream. Psychologists tell us to take note of these repeating dreams because it may be our subconscious mind trying to tell us something.



The thing that is so disquieting about repetitive dreams is that they often feel like “a call to action.” Often, the person feels panicked and like they have to do something. Many psychologists tell us that these dreams are an ironic “wake up call.” Just as you must wake up from a dream to remember, the dream might be telling you to wake up to a truth that you might be hiding from others or yourself.



Repetitive dreams indicate that you are continuing to miss the point about the meaning of the dream. If you don’t “wake up” to the unconscious meaning of the dream, but instead persist in seeing it through your own wish-fulfillment needs, you will remain stuck in your own self-deception.

This is a story that resembles mine. Dreams of repetition. See what the 'so-called' experts say





However, sometimes repetitive dreams are part of a post traumatic reaction to something that has happened in your life. Our modern word nightmare derives from the Middle English nightmare (from night, night, and mare, demon), an evil spirit believed to haunt and suffocate sleeping people. And so, in today’s world, when we speak of a nightmare, we mean a frightening dream accompanied by a sensation of oppression and helplessness.
Traumatic nightmares are one of the many symptoms of post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Repetitive, intrusive nightmares following a trauma often contain symbolic themes that mirror the original trauma and relate to threat to life, threat of abandonment or death, or loss of identity.
The problem with these types of dreams is it is not enough to just know them intellectually. You have to take measures in real life to address your fears or you will most likely keep having the nightmares.
To stop nightmares you might trying writing them down in as much detail as possible, no matter how frightening you find them. Write the story out but give the nightmare a different ending. Diminish what is fearful in the dream and give it a happy needing. Remember that the nightmare is grounded in emotions such as raw anger that have been provoked by a trauma. The point of a new ending is to “tame” the emotions and rewrite your narrative. Then, rehearse the new ending in your mind every night before going to sleep. Many people can successfully stop having repetitive nightmares using this method

What I can say for certainty is that PTSD is a bitch. I will keep in touch.   theblogmeister

Who Hit Rewind?

My brain has reverted back to the late seventies. Well, Not what I have learned, rather. what my sub-conscious is up to. After the traumatic event that happened in 1978, some call it PTSD, my dreams are reverting back to that time era. The past several days I have dreamt the same dreams that I dreamt after the colonel's last breath. Weird dreams, scary dreams, dreams that seem to try to punish me for what I had done. For over thirty years, I have had these dreams that tormented my soul. They made sleep almost impossible. Then, after many years of treatment for PTSD I had the chance to sit face to face with the colonel. There was no fear or apprehension. Those two questions, "Why do you fear me?", "Why do you fear me?" It pissed me off so bad that I let loose a tirade of reasons why he had brought fear into my life. Like a coward that he is, He has started over. Am I going to go through those nightmares and relive them, again? I have no control over my sub-conscious mind. I had a professor in college that stated we only dreamt in black and white and that our nightmares were in color. Bullshit! I gave him an example. I asked him, when did the concept of black and white originate? He had no answer. My belief is that before the invention of the camera, which came before television, no concept of black and white existed. How can humans dream in something that does not exist? It is impossible. Most psychologists are Freud freaks and I reminded my professor that Freud was a dope head. It is true. He documented the use of several narcotics, including LSD, in his book, Sigmund Freud's Cocaine Papers. I am not making this up. Google it, don't take my word. As I was stating before, I have no control of what my mind is up to after I am asleep. Once again, I am having to deal with a soul that has either,a. not crossed over, or b. can move from reality to reality. Time travel, if you will. Man is unable to figure out this phenomenon. Those that have moved on to another parallel universe has mastered the art. That is my only conclusion. Otherwise, why has the colonel chosen to try to do something that did not work the first time. In the mean time, I will have to endure the fear of the past. Time has a total different effect on those that are not of this world. A day to the dead may be a year to the living, I do not know. I have a little bit of an advantage this time. When the colonel chooses to make himself available to me I will most definitely handle it different.    theblogmeister