Confusion

   Dr. White is a good-looking guy. Tall, tan and an air about him that exudes confidence. He is the newest member of my "team" that I have had for the past three months. His specialty is malignant bone cancer and they say he is the best. Thank God that I am a disabled veteran cause I sure could not afford this treatment. Dr. White's sidekick is a Physicians Assistant named Carla. They probably do everything together. Lucky Bastard.
   I'm lying here trying to figure out what the hell is going on with this task I have been instructed to handle while Dr. white is talking non-stop. It's okay. I've got my side-kick here, too. She remembers everything! I had only a few minutes alone with Lorri to try and tell her what is happening when I leave this dimension. She is trying to understand me but her main concern is my health at this point and time. I remember Lorri telling me when I awoke that the tumors were gone, however, she missed the part about the cancer in my bone. Honestly, when I heard that I was relieved. That will give me a chance to go back into the light and figure out what it is I am supposed to do. I tried to pay attention to the doc but it was almost impossible. How many, if any, chances will I have to go back to the light and finish what I was asked to do, even though I am not quiet sure of what it is, yet. I'll be glad when these doctors clear out so Lorri and I can talk. I still have so much to tell her and I do not have any reservations about telling her what I saw.
  
  A malignancy of bone. Primary bone cancer, a cancer that begins in bone is rare, but it is not unusual for cancers to metastasize or spread to bone from other parts of the body, such as the breast, lung, and prostate. The most common type of primary bone cancer is osteosarcoma, which develops in new tissue in growing bones. I know these words mean very little to you, but you need to hear them. Another type of cancer, chondrosarcoma, arises in cartilage. Ewing's sarcoma begins in immature nerve tissue in bone marrow. Osteosarcoma and Ewing's sarcoma tend to occur in children and adolescents, and chondrosarcoma occurs most often in adults. Pain is the most frequent symptom of primary and metastatic cancer in bone. Bone cancer can also interfere with normal movements and can weaken the bones, leading to fractures. Diagnosis of bone cancer is supported by findings of his medical history and examination, blood tests that's including measuring the level of the enzyme for the enzyme alkaline phosphatase, and X-ray studies, and it has been confirmed by a biopsy. Treatment depends on the type, location, size, and extent of the tumor. Surgery is often the primary treatment.
   "The other doctor told me that all the tumors were gone," Lorri reminded them.
  "I just this morning reviewed Mr. Riley's diagnostic records and it does seem that the muscular tumors have diminished in such size that I cannot spot them on the MRI." Dr. White's eyes were looking straight at me and I was a universe away.
  "We have some evidence that the cancer has been found in the marrow. Of Course, we will do a biopsy to confirm." This dude is serious. Here I was thinking I was healed and would have no access to the light. I am a little relieved that all the cancer did not go away.
  After an hour, the medical staff left and I told Lorri as much as I could. Instead of calling me crazy, she asked what my plan was. "I cannot go into the light unless I am deeper than phase four sleep. I am gonna have to have help." She didn't say a word for a few minute then asked, "Did you see my brother?" A tear was rolling down her cheek. I felt so sad but I assured her that I would see him and tell him anything you ask. Right now, I have to find a way to a coma.
  She waited until about one a.m. then walked into the nurses locker room next to the O.R. I told her that they lock it from the inside and it is usually a small exterior dead bolt and if she pulled or yanked on it the door would open. She didn't have to yank very hard. I instructed her to go to the crash carts, usually lining the walls and force open the drug cabinet. Her heart was pounding loud in her ears. She had never stolen anything but this was different. This was for me.
  "What did you find?" I asked as she came into the room. It was great to see her. I did not want her in any trouble. "Let's see, Diazepam in a syringe." I interrupted her."Did you find a vial of something that looks like milk?" She held up a vial of Propyphol. "Perfect. Now get a 10cc syringe and fill it up. I'll need you to put it in the port closest to the cathater." I hope this works. "Push, I want it all in there quick and please don't leave me alone." Lorri whispered just before I went out, "I love you."