Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Demonless Sleep

I can't tell you why I have had several days in a row of restful, dreamless sleep. I have not been doing anything different. Taking my meds, going to psychotherapy. I did start a new therapy session yesterday called spiritual trauma. I really believe that this will help me immensely. My spirituality has been non-existent for a number of years. When I was a child I remember it being the best times of my life. I was going to church on a regular basis. We had no choice because that was the way my parents chose to raise us. We had fun. Going to RA's, playing on the church team basketball, having socials, being around good people. That is where I learned my morals and values. I said, "Yes Sir and Yes Ma'am." Was a good kid. I carried that on through high school and into the Air Force. It was when the Colonel (my Demon) convinced me to go against my strong christian beliefs that my life spiraled out of control and is the reason the Colonel still haunts and terrifies me to this day. This is not of God. It rises from what I exactly call it.Demonic. Am I demon possessed? It sure sounds like it to me.I have never once considered this possibility. He that is in me is greater than He that is in the world. So it should be a simple answer. Have the Faith that God can do what I cannot do for myself. It is not easy. After 29 years of having my sub-conscious mind being ruled with evil I am having a hard time accepting that God can change it so quickly. I have fallen so far away from The Great Physician that I have to work at re-establishing my faith In a God that I used to take for granted. I am excited about these sessions with the Chaplain and will be excited to share them with you. This is for those returning Iraqi and Afghanistan war vets. You have been and seen things a normal mind cannot comprehend. Please do not let the pain you experienced in war keep you from seeking help. I waited over 20 years before I told a soul what I had done and it has made recovering from those wounds very difficult. Seek out help from the VA or your pastor . Anyone you feel comfortable talking to. You have to get it out. God Bless You and God Bless America! theblogmeister

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